Am I really doing this?! YES I AM!!
Am I scared? Fuck ch'ya!
Am I committed? Yep! Within my limitations, of course.
If this doesn't work out, I'll just...Um. I don't know, actually, 'cause I kinda needed money yesterday. 😞 In truth, I should have done this sooner. Much, much sooner. I was just...afraid. Unsure. I hate my body.
But there has to be a niche out there for me, a fat, hairy black transmasculine dude who hasn't medically transitioned yet... 😢
I hope.
Otherwise, well. Goodbye having a roof over my head... 😢 With all of my medical problems, I'd never survive out there.
If there is a god, please let this work... 🙏🏾